A Burgeoning Hollow

It was massive like a black hole - vast and void

Take a look at those dazed eyes
In connection to its immobilized ears
Headed towards the ensconced nose
And ultimately down to this reticent mouth
These senses formed an enervated feeling in my interior

Day by day this ennui is progressive
It's actively contagious like an ailment
I can feel how it inaudibly devours my flesh
It was dark and circular in shape, my mind mused
It's starting to become a quotidian

Despite of my feeble and my exiguous case
My burning curiosity told me, This is miraculous to ponder
How can a delicate exterior handle this kind of perplexion? 
Carrying a such colossal weight in her soul
But not having the ability to obliterate the noxious heft

Allowing the malady to disseminate
Ignoring the infliction and acquiescing the laceration
They take puissance of your internal chunks
Satisfied with the feeling of not eradicating them off
Is this valiance or frailty?

The Speculated Ride

I knew it in my core that this is it, I guess this is really is it.


I was enjoying the road trip,
Complacent of everything,
I got used to the divergent views


The city was almost filled to its capacity,
The mankind and their stories, The traffic lights and the massive buildings
and the other ones who're riding their vehicle as I do


The rural was my favorite jaunt,
It was rich in trees, a picturesque landscape
full of tranquility - there was nothing to be perplexed about
nevertheless I found a sweet sorcery in the emptiness of it


then I thought "how do the others revel in their ride?"


Inhaling the wind across my face I pause and told myself "know your stance"
we took a stop over at a gasoline station,
I suddenly found myself laying my finger at the gearshift
I do not know why but it give me chills
I Went out of the door to shrug the feeling of as I stand by the parking space

The chills did not went away, I closed my eyes
I whispered to myself , No this isn't a signal!
But my subconscious answered,
Yes, it is not a signal because it is about to betide in a minute now

My anticipated fright is finally happening
I do not know if this came to existence
because of the power of luring the pessimist thoughts
or simply because the world made it this way

I did not heard the vehicle door shut,
I did not saw how was the key placed into the ignition
but I am sure that my subconscious felt how the engine inchoate,
The way the latter touched the steering wheel, inflicted my interior in each turn
til I finally discerned everything in an exiguous manner
that the conveyance is factually shifting away from this parking space.

Deep down internally, I felt completely renounced but nevertheless I know that I was proud of that maneuver
because I found the latter's courage to ultimately shift away from this grotesque area to opt the right boulevard

And there I have it, I have reached my own cul de sac
standing by the parking space of the gasoline station waiting to be fetched again.

Wait, I just construed, How silly of me to puzzle out such thoughts! 
The position that I am dwelling in, is nothing but a mere shard of my own world.

The commemoration of my former sanctuary

Here I recall the vinyl shield who saves me and fortifies me whenever the world attempts to accord me with their sharp ammunition

I used to have a sentinel though it was a mere mannequin; I reminisce, that I was still very complacent from the mankind prior to this 

Grim reaper, could you please convey these missive to my former aide?  I have something important to whisper.

The juncture was cruel, they attempted to maul me with their endless weapons to bury my sanity down to the abyss

I swear the apparatus that ached me the most was the pistol because it was adjacent to my physique

I felt the rimfire profoundly, How the trigger was pulled, when did the primer raged to life and I even heard the bullet flew away from its cartridge straight to my core

Do not fret - though I am utterly sure that you are not giving one even a single smear. 

Do not remind me - I know I am culpable for this; for tarnishing  and immersing you with demolition. 

We have reached our cul-de-sac I know, It’s just I forgot to thank the  redemption of yesterday - The way you eradicate the bullets and how you suture my lacerations thereafter.

As I cite this commemoration to you, I am left vulnerably sitting on the ground - injured and unaided

If only I have build my escutcheon impeccably and my ramparts seriously  these won’t take place.

I apologize for the disruption, may you repose in serenity 

Qik or It didn't happen!

            

           In our modern generation, It is mandatory for us to share our valuable course of events with our family and friends, even a short clip will do, whether its funny, romantic, or scary we automatically want forward those videos to our family and friends so we could share a good laugh and they would easily bear with our emotions. 

As they say communication is the best tool for a healthy relationship, That's why I got suddenly exhilarated when I saw Skype Qik because I felt that I can share random videos to my loved ones anytime even in the wee hours!

So is there a burning curiosity raging in your thoughts? Are you all wondering what is the new Skype Qik is? The Skype Qik App is a video messaging service generated by Skype Technologies procured from Qik. The said app enables its registered users to exchange video messages between two individuals or within a bunch of people for a better online interpersonal communication. 

As a first time user of Skype Qik, I loved how it works! I really got enthusiastic to try it with my friends, I was so glad that Skype Qik was utterly user-oriented! We can operate Skype Qik easily by  just dragging the arrow down to record a video then click the fuchsia pink center button, hold it for seconds to record and viola! In an instant, they can see and play the video already.

Luckily, the Skype Qik's service is widely offered in general smartphones like for iOS, Android, and Windows Phone devices. We all know that instant and direct messages, isn't enough for us to share our thoughts, right? And because of Skype's awesome innovation called Skype Qik, I can now send personal made videos to my family and friends. Trendy and convenient isn't it? So what are you waiting for give it a shot and download Skype Qik on your smartphones straightaway and be updated!

 Learn more about The Skype Qik App by clicking this link: http://www.skype.com/en/qik/

Nominal Identity

Why

vastreveries

as my blog’s name?

It is because the creator here thinks excessively. Yeap, Im a certified overthinker(warning: overthinking is detrimental to our mental health) which presumably leads me to impulsive day dreaming about life and its existence, fantasies, odd stuff, dysphoria and etcetera. My subconscious runs all the time and it never stops, thats why i am highly prone to sleep deprivation because of my loquacious mind. Moreover, its my greatest comrade and my ultimate archenemy.

There are a lot of times that I tend to be a fugitive from reality (because mine’s kinda you know… sucks haha) and with the great participation of my encephalon, it helps me to escape actuality whenever I want, I’ll dive myself into another world which are books and music, I am proud to say that those are my partners when in case some emergency happens, like having a hard time dealing with some obnoxious human beings, intense boredom and handling my erratic depression (it depends upon the scale :P) swear, they are the best escapade tools that has ever existed in this planet!!! *yaaay*

To make the story sound more eccentric LMAO! Currenty, I am mastering the art of lucid dreaming. Still, im not half way there lol but the best part is i can wake myself up now hahaha, I also got a massive fascination about psychology. However, I didn’t ended up acquiring and learning it for college. Nevertheless, i am still elated that I chose studying about the law and there are no regrets at all because i find it pretty enthralling too.

*** looking at the bright side, vastreveries stands for my wide range of dreams in life, like to find and create my holistic being, to live an optimistic life, to reach success, to have a happy family, to have a room full of books, to have a Toradora! season 2 (quite impossible but still hoping haha! I’M A HUGE FAN), to have my own gramophone, to hoard vinyl records and CDs, to put my compositions into real music, to be an ice skater, to play all divergent kinds of musical instruments, to speak other foreign languages of my interest, to learn stenography, to be a prolific writer and hopefully, to be a lawyer someday.***

Withal, vastreveries is born with a purpose of course and it covers the compilation of my writings about my quintessential happenings and shenanigans in this chaotic and lethargic existence. Hopefully, I wish my perspective towards life would change, from a pessimist’s point of view to an optimist’s point of view.

In this blog, I want to see how I nurture myself with the help of my loved ones and god in molding me to become a mature human being.

Mission:

I wanna live not just survive

– (Angel with a shotgun, The Cab)

2015: 1 of 365

1st of January 2015

I thought my day is going to be full of nostalgias but it was altered, I can’t describe how elated I am today, This has been a long day and I am very grateful that I've fully spent it with my loved ones.

Twelve o’clock in the midnight of new years eve, I've been actually waiting for the spectacular beauty of the sky’s fireworks display but I felt a little dismayed because it was drizzling and only a few people are lighting up fireworks, unlike when I was a kid, there were lots of them, exploding and sparking brightly at the sky full of stars even if still wasn't new year’s eve. At past seven o’clock you could feel the new year’s spirit already, people are already banging their gates, children would blow horns and shout “It’s almost new year, Yippie!”, families are scattered at the street, placing their tables outside and cooking and preparing the meals for new year’s eve, while their kids are holding lucis, I could still remember a  jeepney hanging a piece of roof on its rear end so it could make this extremely ridiculous sound lol (I laughed at the thought of this hahaha). We even used to celebrate new year’s eve at Tita Ellen’s and Tito A’s house at Las Piñas, I’m really wistful for those moments, because for me, it was the best new year celebration Everything is much better when you’re with the people you cherish.

I got a little displeased because everything was better back then, I discerned that I shouldn't let it get in my way. Though, I’m still very glad because I am with my family. Me and my sister decided to dress up and have a little picture taking for new years eve, we borrowed dad’s phone and ask mom if she could join us. Afterwards, my elder brother suddenly threw a bunch of coins to the floor then me and my younger siblings hurriedly competed against each other to grab the most ample of coins to hoard them on our hands, we ate our meals happily for the night. We got a bunch of fruits placed on the center of the table, a huge quezo de bola, a delicious chocolate cake, spaghetti, Sodas and a bucket of KFC’s chicken with rice.

Early in the rainy morning, my mother woke me up because we’re going to tito Boeing’s house along with my grandmother Rosalina, we had a little celebration, we ate a very scrumptious lunch which Tita Menchie made, It was Ube, Potato Salad, Durian meal, Tuna Sinigang, Lechong Manok, and Brown Rice. Tita Menchie also served cheese with bread, and she asked my father if he would like to try and taste the blue cheese she brought from England which he didn't because he wants chicken instead. Because of our burning curiosity me and my sister Tina took a closer look and observed the blue cheese carefully (thinking that it might move lol) after the meal, we took family pictures, it was really fun especially the wacky part, we sang karaoke, at first everybody was shy about singing but then it just went off and Tita Menchie placed some chocolates on the center table for us to munch on. I got really happy seeing my sister and my cousin Shiho sang duetly because we haven’t been talking with Shiho lately. While we’re growing things are getting apart little by little that’s why seeing them made my heart extra delighted. When we were just about to leave my uncle gave me a book entitled ODJ Annual edition, Volume 21 I was joyed because I love books and moreover it was about god I am very pleased to receive it because I know it will help me procure a healthy spiritual life.

The afternoon came and my father drove us to my cousin’s house, my grandmother, my dad and my two brothers, didn't came along because my eldest brother Vincent already have work tomorrow morning, since my youngest sibling Patrick likes to follow my eldest brother he didn't came too, my grandmother has other errands to finish and my father can’t come with us because he’s the one who’ll drive them home. So its just me, my mother and my sister.

When we got there, My cousins, (Steph and Stacey), my sister and I planned to go to the mall Circle C because it was so near that you can walk to get there. It was raining and it was cold outside, so my cousins got a little disinclined to prepare themselves when the dusk came and the rain ceased falling from the sky, my cousins prepared themselves.

Before we leave the house, Tito Richard said he will call my cousin Steph and will check if Pancit King is open for the holidays and finally we went to Circle C. There, we had a little window shopping of clothes, shoes and etcetera, as the time comes, we got hungry, we got tired and we got bored so we asked our eldest cousin. Steph to buy some chips.

On our way to find a seat, Tito Richard called and told us they were at the third floor of the mall. He told us that the Pancit King was closed so he decided to brought us to Shakey’s. We had Managers choice Pizza, Chicken, Italian spaghetti, garlic bread, other side dishes that I don’t know what their names are, Honey Lemon Iced Tea and Draft Beer. The dinner was beyond great because we enjoyed each other’s company, we had a bowl full of laughters and we took pictures of one another. Afterwards, we said our goodbyes, hugged each other and rode a taxi on our way home.

I thought the day was going to be over then suddenly my friend Izzah called while i was still inside the cab to come over at Jenn and Joana’s house then I said yes. as we got home, my sister and I went to their house and we had a little chit chat about each others holiday. Indeed, it was a day well spent with the people I love the most.

I like the feeling of being at home

Home, it doesn't just say that you’re inside a house with your family. For me it is LOVE, HAPPINESS, TRANQUILITY, SECURITY and the feeling of being YOURSELF that's what it means to me.

Fading Friend?

Well this year is a big change for us, cause were now taking another path in our life. Choosing the right career and entering college. So as everyday goes by, We talk and sometimes see each other maybe thrice a month or so, and i still remember the time when we rode a Quiapo/ Lawton bus on our way to school,  she posted an Instagram Picture on her phone with me and we talked and talked about our experiences in our college life.

 These past few months, It started August maybe, She tweeted me that she would tell me something important and I said "what is it" and she told me "Nevermind I wouldn't force you if you don't like to" and I said "Why nevermind?" and after that she didn't respond. Those are not the exact words though but I don't know if she was offended by the way I deliver my tweet. I just don't know if I hurt her feelings that time or maybe she just changed? Because now she's in a big dance group at her school, (Lol I don't wanna put negative things on my mind now. Its just seems so full of it. It's really hard to be a pessimist ;)) Okay enough of my stupid dramas and back to the story :))) so after that there was a time that she tweeted something about a party on their house and I replied hey can we come but she didn't tweeted back... At first I felt why she didn't replied? Maybe she was just busy or maybe she didn't saw my tweet so I just let it be.

Then at the month of September my birthmonth she didn't even greet me though she was online all the freakin time, She didn't care to tweet, chat or post on my Timeline just to greet me, Even a simple effortless "HBD" would work. I waited til the end of the day and i received nothing from my Inbox, Convo, Mentions and etc NOTHIIIIING. I've noticed every time I try talk to her It just not the same anymore, I tweeted, chat, text and even post on her timeline but all i get is short replies or even sometimes no reply,

just like this:

Me: Hi! How are you >:D<
Her: Fine. You?
Me: Im Great :) long time no talk :)
Her: Ikr
Me: I miss you :)
Her: Me either.

Three hours ago she PM'ed me If I could like a picture for her sister joining a contest on Facebook, and  i said "i already liked that" and I tried to talk to her, tried to ask her how's her life now and just like i expected all i get is short replies. Well i know every time we chat we just chat a little but It seems like there's something different i feel like every time i approach her i feel like i'm annoying her cause her answers are like an emotionless robot and putting a forced "Haha" or smiley something. And I felt you'll just PM me cause you need something.

Ugh, I don't know if it's just me or her? :'(  Is she changing because of she's now a part of a big dance group and she has a lot of  friends now? Maybe she's just busy with school works & dancing cause her school is offering a trimester education? Or may be she just forgot that I was a part of her childhood life and her best friend? Sometimes I stop and think maybe she didn't considered me as a best friend just a childhood friend maybe, Is it just my pessimistic mind? or  Maybe im just being over reacting cause im missing the good old times we spent?

Well I just hope that she's not changing :) For me she's important. Every person i became friends with is valuable if im a lose for her, for me she isn't :)  Anyways I'm planning to talk to her and ask her If she want to complete the "SIMBANG GABI" with me and our friends this Christmas I hope she come with us :)

Irony of my pain.

Isn't it pretty odd that there's this feeling inside of my bare soul that I don't wanna get hurt but I still want to feel more pain? 


I don't want to get hurt because,
It diverges my entire mood, my heart feels like its literally crashing into fragments scattered around the floor, my world will suddenly fall down that sometimes I wanna end my troublesome life; I always put myself into some more misery, My mind is compiling a lot of pessimistic thoughts and I every time it crosses in my mind, I absorb the pain, the water in my eyes would fill in and fall down as tears, I will automatically listen to a lot of emotional songs to bear on the way I feel thinking like it's mandatory, its basically  my way on how will I find someone would understand and fill in this empty space beside me without explaining it to anybody, Its actually hard if you have a lot of unpleasant thoughts filled in your mind with these bruises and scars surrounded in your heart.


And why I want to feel more pain?
It's because sometimes when I get used to being hurt, I  feel like I'm in a dire need of having a massive amount of pain to abide because thinking of much more than the current pain that i'm having feels like there is a huge lesson to be learned. it sounds utterly emo isn't it. Well I don't know, maybe it's because there are times that I wanna be alone and Think hard about things around me, but most of the time I wanna feel the pain again for me to realize that I should I cease being an irrational fool cause i'm a gullible person you know and I want to be taught by the pain that I'm having, Cause as they say pain changes people but I know I'll change in a better way.

I just went to a Ramp. Wow is this me?

NOVEMBER 29,2012

Around quarter to twelve (midnight)  my sister and I  was about to sleep, I went off from our PC so my sister could use it for a while to check some of her notifications on Facebook, I walked to the kitchen to grab some milk and took my medicine, after that I brushed my teeth, went to bed and checked my phone to see if I have new text messages. apparently, I have no load that time and I didn't get to reply my friend's text since im not drowsy enough to sleep, I checked my Facebook on phone and i received a notification from my Cousin, She tagged me in a post that says,

My first reaction was.... Really? I'm gonna be on a ramp? Seriously?!!! At first I was excited and nervous at the same time because I'm gonna be a part of world's fashion history, (The New Glorietta Vibe) cause they're tryna beat a world record even if were gonna wear vibe shirts only unlike my cousin Steph. cause she'll be wearing a clothing that is branded cause she was the picked winner from a said contest from AVA.

So I told my cousin "yes I will come if my sister could come too & if only my mom would allow us". So yea that night I talked to my sister about that Ramp on The New Glorietta Vibe and the call time for tomorrow is 6 am then we will meet up with our cousins at Trinoma afterwards, we prepared the stuff we should bring & what heels should we wear & I even practiced a few steps in our room.

 at 2am my sister slept & set an alarm on my phone. I was lying on my bed and thinking,

-Will my mother allow us to come? 

-What will I look for tomorrow?

-I know i'm gonna look awkward while everyone looks fab...

-Should the people accept the way I look? ( my body type thin & small? .__.) 

-Will they let me ramp cos I may be mistaken as a kid?

-I know my cousins and my sister would look great cause they're all tall & pretty unlike me...

-Will I be late?.... (cause i'm here wasting my time overthinking..... instead of sleeping to look fresh for tomorrow)

but there's a little voice in my head says that..... I KNOW YOU'D STILL LOOK NICE (just nice) FOR TOMORROW. YOU MAY NOT BE THE PRETTIEST NOR THE TALLEST LADY ON EARTH. Well, I still have a little positivity inside of me even though i'm a pessimist ;)

By 5am we woke up. Mom gaves us the permission to go and i just discerned that I wasn't excited after all cause Im feeling so inferior. my subconscious is screaming out loud that I shouldn't go I should just stay here and stay infront on my PC all day but I already said yes to my cousins so i gotta do this thing! :S By 6 am, I thought we were gonna be late cause MRTs are so full cause it was still closed.  The line was too long from the 1st floor to 4th floor it was so full of people, we waited for about 30 mins and we were really late, so me & my cousins decided to meet at Glorietta instead of Trinoma as the said meet up place.

As we reached Glorietta, we saw the big time kids, male & female stunning models, The rich, sophisticated & classy people, some various celebrities The sponsor of the said clothings & etc; I suddenly felt like i'm inside a magazine cause almost everyone is tall & flawless. The host ordered the models to line up to their said clothing line, So we seperated with Steph for awhile cause she's gonna be modelling for The Ramp Crossings while Stacey,  Tina & I will be modelling for The Vibe.

The line started accepting sign up sheets for the vibe models. My companions already signed up for the event while I was there standing looking at them. They called me "go ahead & sign up already were done" and i told them "no i won't sign up, I've changed my mind" (cause deep inside I have felt that im not suite for this, I'm not a model, I don't even qualify to be a model, I don't have that required beauty & height, I don't have confidence, I hate wearing make up!, I don't like dressing up & wearing heels with high inches cause it makes me walk dumb) they asked me "why is it so?" and  I told them that "I'm feeling very shy & discriminated." so they tried to cheer me up they told me "no it's okay this is gonna be fun don't feel like that we have each others back you don't have to feel that way and tita's not around you'll be lonely and hungry all day & night if you don't come & sign that up" So for the sake of hunger and boredom I finally signed up the sheet against my will. 

At rehearsal time we strolled the mall and went to the restroom, we changed from flats to heels, then a minute had passed my feet are already hurting and my walk is getting silly & funny while my companions are enjoying the feeling of wearing high heels. So i changed to flats urgently. We didn't  get the chance to practice up stage and my anxieties are attacking again its a good thing that my cousins & my sister didn't go either so the benefit is all mine haha. Instead we just watched the other models do the catwalk on stage. My cousin Steph did our make up by the stairs near our holding area and the staff gave our lunch.. So I was looking around the seats If there's somebody here same as me, not too tall, not-so-model-look and etc like that. Well, I saw a few of em. I kinda feel delighted cause i was not the only short person here, though I know this is a bad frame of mind but i know there's still something in them that lacks me a lot and it is confidence cause my confidence level is zero :))) AND SEE HOW THEY WEAR THOSE  HIGH HEELS? THEY CAN HANDLE AND BRING IT ANYWHERE unlike me lol what a pathetic loser =)))))))))))))

Around 1-3pm we were so bored waiting for the vibe to give us our shirt so while waiting we wandered around the mall our make up was fading cause it was on our faces for like 5 hours i guess 

me & my cousins went to mercury drug to retouch and i'm glad that my friend Chelley had called cause I really need someone to talk to.

At 4-5pm we finally received our vibe shirts we wore it and it was too damn large so to make it look good the other models and my sister cutted her shirt to make it look edgy and fashionable. While I didn't cut mine cause I don't wanna waste the shirt :)) I just folded it and tucked it in. I pretty much looked  like a hanger and a weird girl wearing that xxl vibe shirt lol but i dont care cause I always looked that way haha so I switched to heels again to fit in with the other models cause this is a fashion show; I forced myself to change just only for now. The staff finally gave us the early dinner and we met a few people around us, It was Jenna and her two other friends.. We chit chatted a little. Jenna told us that he's guy friend also had the same course that I have BSBA Internal Auditing leading to BSA at FEU but now on his second year. After, we went to mercury drug AGAIN to prep ourselves and we walked to Steph's holding area to help us fix our make ups. As we get back to our seat there were Male & Female (couple) JAG models ( i pretty much think they're brazillians though) and they asked us if they can sit beside our chair.

I was really having a hard time wearing heels even for a minute. My feet would rather walk in barefoot than in heels so i decided changed back it again to flats x))))))))) Cause my feet couldn't stand it. IM NOT GOING TO EMBARRASS MYSELF WITH THIS STUPID HEELS hahaha So finally by 7pm the show is about to start we fell in line outside at the back stage and my heart starts pumpin 10000x faster than my normal heart beat. We, The vibe models were the first to ramp onstage lucky! Cause we don't need to wait, I don't want to carry this tenstion for a long time and I want this to finish cause I really want it to be over =)))))))))))))

During our line at the backstage we saw alot of celebrities near us. Bret & Ivan from PBB, Hayden Kho, Denise Laurel, Bubbles Paraiso, some celebrities from starstruck, Billy Crawford, Bianca Gonzalez and etc the other models were taking pictures with them while me & my cousins are standing ang waiting for the program to begin.

After my cousin's ramp,  It's now my turn to walk on stage I was the 539th model out of the 2255 models( I think). I stepped the first stair wearing my flats & carrying a lot of emotions inside of me. I was really feeling high-strung cause i didn't get a chance to rehearse earlier but it's okay i know God will guide me :) as I get out of the curtains I didn't look at the crowd I just stared at a one particular object and I walked confidently and i even felt my hair swaying to the good background music  I forgot everything that I had in my mind. I did a little simple pose at the end (though i think i look humiliating) cause it was required lol =))) I memembered  The staff said "At the end of the stage it's your time to shine, strike a pose, do whatever you want, If you want to look fierce with mouth open you may do it" :)) 

Actually in that 10 seconds of my life. I enjoyed it :)
I KNOW MODELLING ISN'T MY PASSION AND IT IS THE LAST THING ON MY LIST THAT I WOULD DEFINITELY DO BUT  IT WAS A GREAT UNFORGETTABLE EXPERIENCE. 


Sometimes it's okay to try different things. I'm really not into fashion and my girlfriends from high school know that very well. I still remember the way my gay friend laughs at the way I wear he told me "I know what you'll wear for Halloween a shirt and a pair of jeans" lol x)) Gladly,  I had girlfriends who advises me what to wear and fix up the way I look if there's an occasion or events at school :) But Id always prefer wearing sweaters, hoodies, shirts, jeans, flats and sneakers than fancy glittery & silky gowns, high heels, elegant clothes and other kinds of fashion blahs hahaha


at the back of my encephalon, I really don't know If I just made my self stand out of the crowd or did i just embarrassed myself? Hahahaha here goes the pessimistic thoughts again ;)

Since I'm new here, I better introduce myself

Salutations! 

I am Toni the rightful owner of this blog :)

Residing in the Philippines

• an introvert

• awkward and odd looking

• I am pretty much petite.

• Cats and Dogs are both adorable!!!!!!!!

• I've been walking, breathing and surviving 17 years here on planet earth.

• I like cartoons even though im old bahaha who cares 

• I LOVE books... a lot they are my life hahaha

(especially, comtemporary, YA, romance and suspense and im not into fantasy)

• and music they are my inspiration.

(particulary, punk, indie rock, indie pop, post hardcore, and alternative rock)